I seriously don’t know how it happened! One day I was working full time, raising kids, keeping a house in order and trying to be a wife. In the blink of an eye I am in my 60s thinking about retirement. The years sped by so quickly. The children grew and had children of their own. Today I am looking at young couples with kids, doing the same thing I did, and I feel physically exhausted just watching them!
I did not come to know God personally until I was in my late 30s after a horrific tragedy in my life. Oh how I wish that relationship would have begun sooner. I think my life would have been so different. I would have made better decisions and choices for sure! But, the most important thing is that it did happen and God has restored so many areas of my life. I am so grateful to the people along the way, that reached out to me. People who knew God, that came along side of me and encouraged me and cheered me on. Those people listened to me as I tried to make sense of things that never would, and then pointed me to the one who could truly help me.
I know He was there during every phase of my life. There were times when I felt so alone, as if God was silent and far away. But as I look back, it was me who did not include Him in my life. I tried to control and manipulate and handle life on my own, very rarely seeking His input. Life has become so much better as I have learned to talk to God and give up trying to control the outcome of every situation. (It doesn’t always work, but I try!!!)
My “WORD” for this year is trust. Do I really trust that God knows whats best for me and He will guide me as I seek His will for my life? I know one thing. It’s so much easier to give it to Him rather than carrying the full responsibility of the outcome of every situation in my life. I try to do my best and trust Him with the rest. How about you? Sounds way too easy doesn’t it? Believe me when I say it is not easy! We must make a conscious decision to do it and remind ourselves daily, because it is really easy to take it back!
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding/ in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV
God bless each of you as you grow closer to Him.